34 week appt.

I had my 34 week appointment this morning. It’s like deja vu except I’m a few pounds heavier. Try to pee in a cup, take off boots to get weighed, slightly elevated blood pressure, shake hands with doctor, hear Ethan’s heart beat, wipe goo off belly, put boots back on. This time it took her awhile to find his heartbeat which really freaked me out.

I saw a new doctor in my practice that I really like—so that makes 2/8 that I hope will be on duty when I deliver. And the practice just hired a midwife which is cool (not sure if she will have anything to do with me though).

Next appointment is the big one—exam to see if I’m dilated, ultrasound to see what position he’s in, strep b test, all questions answered, etc. No turning back now!

In other news, I haven’t really had many dreams yet about Ethan or giving birth. My dreams have mostly been about random other things. Last night though, I dreamt we had left the hospital without breastfeeding first. I was going on a trip to Mexico and realized I hadn’t breastfeed him yet and rushed off the plane to get back to Lucas & Ethan. It’s a pretty horrible dream for a number of reasons. One, that I didn’t remember to feed/nourish my child, and the fact I was ditching him with Lucas and going to Mexico right after giving birth! Clearly I’m not going to be THAT horrible of a mom but it doesn’t feel good to have these dreams. No wonder my blood pressure is elevated.